The last two weeks in movies 7/6/17

Now that I'm not in school and only work two days a week, I've been overcome with the need to watch tons of movies. I don't know why, but I like it. Almost all of these have been in the theaters, although the first few weren't. Now I'm trying to kind of simultaneously up my knowledge of russian movies, 90s New York movies, and Japanese New Wave cinema. We'll see how it goes. 



6/23 - Just Another Girl on the I.R.T.
I found this movie on a list of black female filmmakers and liked the name of the title. I loooove this movie. It's kind of like if Spike Lee made a Juno-esque movie, but more real, with better music, and more honesty. A few of the scenes are pretty low-budgety (quite staged, giving lots of exposition, awkward blocking), but overall this movie is a masterpiece. I can't stop listening to the soundtrack. 

6/24 - Persepolis
I read this book in high school and always wanted to see the movie. It kind of reminded me of The Virgin Suicides only in that it is a perfect adaptation of the book, effectively animating it while keeping true to the story. Amazing, but everyone already knew that. 

Just Another Girl on the I.R.T (1992) - Dir. Leslie Harris

Just Another Girl on the I.R.T (1992) - Dir. Leslie Harris

6/25 - Solaris
Since I saw Stalker a few weeks ago, I've been on a quest to see all of Tarkovsky's movies in theaters. This played at the Film Noir Cinema in Greenpoint, which is this amazing rental store/screening room run by a cinephile. The film was wonderful - definitely makes sense as part of Tarkovsky's earlier work.

6/26 - The Beguiled
Elle Fanning and Nicole Kidman's eye contact moments were absolutely the best part of the film. It was really well done. Going into it blind was great; I genuinely had no idea what was going to happen, and it paid off. The lack of music was really interesting given Sofia Coppola but otherwise it fits into her filmography perfectly. 

6/27 - Persona
Watched this with some of my friends as part of our "Good Movie Night" group. I hadn't ever seen a Bergman film and now I'm glad that I did. Thinking about the entire thing as kindof a long monologue makes it even better. Getting used to the singular voice is fascinating. Everything I expected + more.

Funeral Parade of Roses (1970) - Dir Toshio Matsumoto

Funeral Parade of Roses (1970) - Dir Toshio Matsumoto

6/29 - Lost in Paris
I saw the trailer for this at Sunshine and was super excited. It was pretty good - there were mostly older people in the theater, and now I know why. It was cute, and very chaplin-esque, which is unusual, but still not as clever as I had hoped. The characters were nice and the story was pleasantly intertwined, but I was waiting for the movie to end a bit, which these days, I rarely do. 

6/30 - Baby Driver
So good. Seeing it at Alamo Drafthouse was the best decision for this movie, because it requires a huge screen and amazing sound. There's not much else to say about it except that it's a great Edgar Wright movie. I'm dying to know how they cut the Hocus Pocus scene - can't wait for the behind the scenes information to start coming out. 

7/1 - Funeral Parade of Roses
This is my second favorite movie I've seen this summer after Stalker. It was amazing, and I had never heard of it just a few minutes beforehand. I was eating dinner with a friend and we decided to run to the Quad (which I hadn't been to before) to see it. I was in awe. It kind of inspired A Clockwork Orange, but then it was heavily inspired by Jonas Mekas, which is fascinating. I can't say enough about it. I can't wait to see it again! The culture it depicts, the way it uses time, the characters, the story, the horror ending, I just love it. I can't wait to see more films like this (hopefully they exist).

7/2 - In Transit
I looooved this documentary because it's all about the Empire Builder train, and I've taken that train from Minnesota to Montana in the past. However, it's a classic Maysles film - quite basic and genuine and relying only on the content. I related to it because I've been there, and many of the stories were touching. 

7/3 - Okja
I saw this in the theater at Lincoln Center, even though it's on Netflix. It is really really great but it totally destroyed me. I was bawling by the end of it, and afterwards as well. I definitely recommend seeing it. Every character is wonderful in it, and Bong Joon-ho is a genius. But it's very real and pretty terrifying. 

7/4 - 13th
I decided to celebrate the 4th of July by finally watching Ava Duvernay's documentary about prison labor in the United States. It's deeply fucked up, there's not much else I can say. Interesting to see Newt Gingrich not be terrible in it. Wonderfully constructed story and the graphics are fascinating. 



Tonight I'm going to see a screening of "Jesus' Son" at the Metrograph. Nothing planned for tomorrow or this weekend, but hopefully this streak doesn't end anytime soon. 


STALKER 6/9/17

On Tuesday I went to see Andrei Tarkovsky's newly restored film "Stalker" at the IFC Center. i'm kind of convinced that "4k restoration" is the official buzzword of the year, but that's another story. 

anyways, I'd heard about it a little at the film society because people were talking about it a fair amount. Then I saw that alamo drafthouse was also screening it, along with IFC, and I felt i should see it. Hoooly shit. 

although it was made in 1979, the film starts out in sepia, and is shot in 4:3, so you get the feeling that it is an older film, with less technology used. but in reality it's a highly technical film and every frame - seriously, every frame - is more beautiful that most films i've seen ever. I was in awe the entire time. it was like an eye massage. 

It also finally brought me to a style of film that i've ben resistant to for so long - the superlong film. At 2 and a half hours, that's not even super long, but it's longer than I usually like to see. Usually when I see a 2.5 hour long film, it's a martin scorcese film, and I think all of those can be cut down. But Scorcese films are that long because of excessive plot aspects, while Stalker was this long because Tarkovsky is actually playing with time in a way that mentally invites us to be in the same headspace as the characters. I feel like holding on shots like that has always been a ~concept~ but i've never had it work for me. It was rhythmatic and poetic and quite long and my eyes were glued to the screen the whole time. 

While watching it i was thinking about how in 1979 America was in the ~new hollywood~ stage with loud stories and flashy statements. And how much better this is than all of that. I couldn't imagine even comparing any of those films to this one. This was so much more realized, and so much more meaningful. 

Anyways, now i'm going to be watching all of his films and i've already ordered some of his books online. it's kind of funny that the moment I graduate from film school, i come across this, which seems to be already teaching me more about filmmaking than most material shown to me in my classes. But, i guess that means I'm continuing to learn, which is all i can really ask for. 


5 years ago 5/25/17

Five years ago today I hugged my best friends goodbye and drove away from CITYterm to JFK. It was technically the first time I'd *left* New York for more than a few weeks, and I had no way of knowing if I'd live here again anytime soon. i was 17 and about to start senior year of high school. ugh. the thought of that makes me shiver. 

Thinking back though, I think that where I am right now is pretty much exactly where I hoped I'd been. i've lived such a full new york life since i moved back here permanently in August of 2013. I've already been reminiscing about my time here in general since graduation last week, but today I was thinking about through the eyes of the hopeful teenager that loved this city more than she'd ever loved anything.

5 years ago today, I was flying home and crying after a semester of listening to Mason Jennings on the metro north, dancing through subway trains, exploring st. marks place as if it was a secret wonderland, romping through tompkins square park as if it was magical, stepping into some strange cafe called Sidewalk to hear free music, and falling in love with the city through the eyes of the people that literally gave their lives to create it. the innocence my friends and I had was so incredibly pure. I laugh and cringe when I look back on it. I can't regret it. it was pure happiness. the 6 train was our church. astor place was a destination to hang out in. ludlow & rivington was quaint and peaceful. Oh man. 

The only thing that could have been better that semester is if I had lived in the city itself - a connection so intense and personal that I almost couldn't fathom it. But now I'm sitting in my brooklyn basement apartment while the city rains outside my open window. I've lived in four apartments here, and this one is actually home.

I wish I could tell myself back then to not be so sad, but I can't because I didn't know if I'd return to the city so soon. If I hadn't gotten into NYU I would probably have moved to a different city for college. And only just now, after graduation, would I be moving back. Maybe my life would be different and beautiful in wonderful ways and I would be even happier than I am now if I had done that. But I can't imagine that. This city made me full. The sometimes-frightening truths of the city made me into a real person. I didn't exist before I experienced them.
Freshman year I walked into a restaurant and got a job as a waitress and grew up within the span of 8 months more than I could have in any sort of college environment. Three years later and most of my life revolves around the things I learned there and the people I met there. Where would i be at a different college without Sidewalk?

I came to NYU as a procrastinating freshman who loved to edit movies and loved new york and left as a motivated honors student with a fierce work ethic, a clear idea of what I hope to encounter next, and a solid path to get there. I still love this city deeply but sometimes I worry that I forget. But as long as I continue learning I have nothing to worry about. As long as I utilize every full day and always return home late at night after I've achieved something special in my day, it's all going to be okay. Sometimes new york and adulthood in general feels like an endless summer because there's always -something- to do and you never need to just go home. I'm so thankful for that. I'm proud of how i've taken advantage of it. and i'm really excited for this summer. 

5 years and a few days ago I was riding the hudson line of the metro north with my best friends and listening to the Mason Jennings album i'm listening to right now. We ate cookie dough and talked about Frank Zappa and made movies. I really miss that. We bought harmonicas and tried to play them. Moving back to new york for college would never recreate that and I knew it. I'm so thankful that it brought on even more incredible things. but I won't pretend I don't miss those train rides. Looking out and seeing the flame alight on the trash processing plant at the Ludlow stop. Dark shadowy buildings passing by. A barge in the river. Our faces pressed against the glass.

I just found my last diary entry in my CITYterm journal. I probably wrote this on May 24, 2012: "Perhaps one of the reasons that I love the flame so much is that it doesn't have the capacity to forget. I always become attached to places, for they won't hurt me, or get lost in their new life. Somehow, they'll remember. New York has to remember all of the good times we've had."

I'm glad I remember today. Onward...




the last day of college 5/14/17

kind of. it's kind of impossible to determine a "last day" of college because I'm at school so much. and i will be for this summer. but this weekend was such a finale.

as of now, sunday night, i've officially finished two huge projects i've been working on since November: the NYU Advanced TV Pilot "The Troupe" and a music video called "Tin Laurels". i've literally never been so proud of myself. the editor of a half-hour long comedy pilot and the director/editor of a very experiemental and very unique music video. i worked so hard on them and i KNOW that they're great because of it. ahhhhhh. 

i don't think it's hit me that i won't be experiencing tisch the same way that i'm used to in the future. in a way this weekend was my sendoff, even though i'll be editing there a ton this summer.

last night was the climax of the weekend when our entire post team for The Troupe got locked out of our mix suite at 1 A.M. while the protools mix session was printing. with no phones, jackets, wallets, or shoes, we became so panicked that we just began laughing. it was freeing and terrifying and frustrating but so fitting that i would be trapped on the 11th floor, where I've no doubt spent the most time in my college career. I love that floor. It was 2am and we were lying on the floor of the hallway trying to figure out how to break back into our edit suite. I will miss this production.

There's this weird aspect of film school where you work with other 22-year-olds and you're in awe at how smart and professional and productive you can all be together. But then you end up raiding a random desk for luna bars together and it all kind of makes sense. it goes from completely serious to completely silly in the smallest moment. 

Today as I came to Tisch to put the final touches on Troupe and to finish the music video, it was almost too easy. I've spent so many sundays here but so few of them resulted in me truly being proud of what i'd made during the day. today i can look at my work and -know- it's good and -know- i can trust it. it's crazy. i can't process it. but i'm so lucky and thankful and happy. i can't wait till everyone can see what i've been making. 


a new website 5/1/17

I haven't posted here in a hot second. I've been doing so many things. I took down and put back up my website! Only I realized that most of the things I've been working on won't be available for the internet to see freely for a long time. They're mostly in the form of private links. So that's not exaactly what I had in mind. 

This winter was nice. Aside from the world generally falling apart, my life has been going well. I edited a TV pilot, a thesis film, a comedy sketch, a music video. I'm coloring another film that I edited over the winter. I stopped eating carbs for a month, I shaved my head, I read 1Q84, I quit my waitressing job, I started running again, I'm graduating college in 19 days. 

I've also been interning at Alucia Productions and the Film Society of Lincoln Center since October. Those are coming to a close in the next month or so, too. Alucia has taught me so much about file organization and management and collaborative environments and assistant editing. Lincoln Center has given me the freedom to figure out what works and what doesn't in social media promotion. Plus it exposes me to sooo much great cinema. 

So now I'm looking for a job, which is slightly terrifying but also exciting. I want to be a Post PA on a feature film. It's one of the only things that I've had no exposure to throughout school, because those types of productions don't really hire students or interns or anything part-time. But I think it's what I'd like to do, so hopefully I can get my foot in the door. Fingers crossed. But also it would be nice to have a small break before I begin a 7-day workweek once again. 

hopefully I can start posting more about the things i'm working on, also, movies ive been watching, which is so many. once I have a moment to breathe I swear i will. 


keep the faith



a blog post 9/28/16

This is an untraditional version of my normal blog post. But i've been working on a new version of my website for about a week now, and I'm getting so excited to release it. It makes me want to do more work to fulfill the site more. And it's also a good way to survey what I have been actually doing since I got to NYU. There's an entire film I made sophomore year that I literally forgot I made, even though it's like a great film that I'm proud of. What??

Anyways, look forward to that. More from other things of my life soonish, maybe, if I can catch a breath.

Keep the faith~


The Lost Arcade 8/18/16

Yesterday I didn't have anything to do after I finished editing for the day, so I went to the Metrograph to see a movie. Which is pretty much my default these days, because the metrograph is my favorite movie theater in new york. I mostly picked the movie because of the title and the fact that it had a female screenwriter and producer. I didn't know if it was a documentary or a narrative. It was called THE LOST ARCADE.

The first shot was one of my favorites. A passionate monologue about seeing an arcade in a dream, accompanied by slow-moving bright visuals of a person moving through chinatown. Any film with an opening like that will hook me right away. I had kind of been hoping for the entire film to feel exactly that first moment, but it quickly shifted to a similar, less transcendent aesthetic that matched the documentary pace of the rest of the film. I can't complain.

The film follows the community around Chinatown Fair on Mott Street, which was, at one point, the last penny arcade in New York City. An arcade that makes all of its profit from the machines, no food sales, no bar sales, no age limit, no bouncer. I felt at first that it wouldn't interest me entirely because I'm not a gamer, and have only been to ~barcades~ to play galaga and pac-man and drink beer. The community, no matter how tight-nit, was not relatable to me.

But, as the film goes on, the subject shifts from the gaming community specifically to the fact that communities like this grow organically all around New York, yet are still ephemeral; forever at mercy to the quickly changing housing market. There's one line that they say, I think towards the end of the film , something like - "it couldn't have been anywhere else, it had to be in New York City, and it had to be in Chinatown. Otherwise, it never would have happened."
That is my shit. That is what I love about New York the most. People and communities and places like that are what I love studying and researching and sometimes even being a part of.

Last year in my Sight & Sound Documentary class, I spent pretty much the entire semester researching Mars Bar, which was an iconic dive bar on 2nd Ave & 1st Street in the Lower East Side. It closed in 2011, way before I had even thought about moving to New York, but some of my coworkers had worked there, and I work now in a kind-of divey restaurant, so I felt a connection and longed to experience what it had been. I downloaded thousands of photos from Facebook groups, flickr albums, news reports, internet archives. A lot of them documented the last few weeks of Mars before it closed. It really really reminded me of a lot of this film, the last moments of Chinatown Fair.
The difference here was that it seems like nobody wanted Chinatown Fair to close, and a lot of people did want Mars Bar to close. More on how reminiscing and romanticizing dangerous people for a dream aesthetic can be toxic later.

But what I'm getting at is I reallllyyy feel the "technlostalgia" of the film, and it really is a love letter to Chinatown, and to New Yorkers. It is really positive in a strange way. It was the best, and they had that, and nobody else did. It's amazing.

Anyways, the absolute best part of this film is the score. I've been listening to it all day. I don't think a single person reads this blog, and I don't really want anyone to, but I hope people do now just so they can read about how much I love this score and listen to it for themselves. It's so transcendent. It's the epitome of things I love. It's so colorful. Please give it a listen.

I'm glad I got to see this movie yesterday. God, I love the Metrograph. It's only screening there for a few days, but there was a pretty sizable kickstarter campaign, so I bet it'll be available to watch soon. If you love any of the urban design or new york city history stuff that I do, please watch this film.

Keep the faith~


dog days 7/26/16

It is so hot out this summer, oh my god. It seems much worse than last summer, but it's always hard to tell if it really is. My block in Williamsburg seems like it's moving in slow motion these days, and everyone is coated in a layer of sweat. It's kind of nice to not worry about what you look like, because everyone looks terrible.

I've been doing a new thing where I take minute-long videos in areas that I really love, instead of just photos. I was thinking the other week about what makes a still video different from an image, even if absolutely nothing moves in the video. That extra bit of life is kinda captivating to me. Maybe I should buy a mini tripod for my phone.

Anyways. Summer is over halfway over. I feel good about it all, so far. I'm deep into editing Darklands, which is probably the most ambitious project I've worked on. It's so nice to work with footage that constantly looks and sounds great - I don't have to worry about bad takes or technilogical glitches. The first rough cut was at 25 minutes - it'd be nice to get it way down for a festival cut, but also it's a film that likes to take its time, so I'm not suuuper worried.

I've grown to like Premiere a lot. I've finally mastered so many keyboard commands and can edit by typing, essentially. It feels really cool to do, and it's also so much faster. The most helpful change I made was mapping the video and audio track sources to the numbers and function keys on the keypad, so I can toggle them super easily. Then trimming becomes way faster without the mouse. Also, taking advantage of window shift shortcuts - shift + 1 for the project window, shift + 2 for the source window, and shift + 3 for the timeline. All I need.

I'm also so excited that I'm only going to be in class part-time next semester, because I've been hearing from a lot of my classmates about potentially working on more projects in the coming months. I'm locked down to start working on my friend Tiye Amenechi's intermediate film, Mama Said No White Barbies. I'm pretty excited about it because I love the script, it's concise, and it was shot in RED, which I haven't worked with before. I'm set up to start working on it later this week.
I'll also most likely be editing my friend Peter's film as well - I did the sound for one of his previous films from sophomore year.

I really should write more, because there's so much more I've been doing. I was up in Dobbs Ferry for a week and it was one of the best things I could have asked for this summer. I've been seeing a ton of cool movies at the metrograph, my favorite new theater in New York. I've been working on two DV and Super 8 films of my own, as well as a few iphone projects. The first film I edited this year, Big Girls Don't Cry, is almost finished with sound mix, and we'll be able to release it soon. I'm reading more Murakami with Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman. I'm even writing more, which is just weird. It's a good summer - I think I might be the only one who feels that way, though....

keep the faith,,,


leveling up 5/23/16

I'm currently on the only good plane ride I've ever been on.

I usually hate them, a lot. I think I'm going to die every time I take off, convinced that the tail will hit the runway and everything will explode. Once that's through and I'm up in the air, I'm moderately comfortable, but always resentful of everyone around me, close quarters, stale biscotti, artificial air, achey knees. It's a great time to watch movies, but also a great time to be anxious and unable to concentrate on anything.

But today is awesome. I'm flying from Seattle to New York. Total duration is five hours and one minute. But I'm coming off of a somewhat relaxed past few days, and so it's different. For one, I somehow managed to snag the best seat on the plane. It's a window seat at the very back, and due to it being in a strange space, there's double the leg room. Kind of like first class without paying for it. There's a power outlet, so I can be on my computer the whole time, and I have my dad's airplane wifi password. It's basically equivalent to hanging out in bed and surfing the web all day.

So it's good.

But even with all that, I'm lucky that today is a day that I want to be still. Without that coincidental timing, this flight would still be shit. I'm lucky that I'm reading a new book, one that I can tell is gonna be very important to me for a long time.

Last week, I had one of the first moments of stillness in recent memory while sitting on a hill in Prospect Park with my friend Max. We didn't really stand up or move for hours, instead chatting and peoplewatching and thinking. And the longer we stayed, the more comfortable I felt with taking a break from the world.
It's my first week of rest after the end of a busy semester; to sit still and have good things to look forward to is the healthiest thing I could hope for. The day spent in Prospect Park was soothing, healing, positive, relaxed, beautiful. When I arrived home later that night, I found a package on the couch. It was a copy of Claire L. Evans' first book, High Frontiers.
Glancing through the pages, I couldn't help but feel that this book's arrival was confirmation that the day was the first of a new chapter of my life; a clearer, more focused, more realized one. The anxious noise in my head from the past few months has started to ease. Take the useless energy projected outward into the void, and transform it.

High Frontiers is a collection of essays, many of which were published online previously, by Claire L. Evans, one half of YACHT and one of my biggest inspirations for the better part of the last decade. Somehow I'd missed that this book existed - it was released in 2013 - and I ordered it in a YACHT-themed shopping spree after I saw their most recent show in Brooklyn.

The focus of the book is wide: technology, science fiction, cyberpunk, society, the future, the present, health, implication, space, opinion, insight... so far, it's an incredibly clear and unique look into what's going on in the world right now, how it happened, and what we're supposed to do with it - all through the lens of technological progression. I am beyond fascinated with the topic. I've never been into sci-fi that much, but the way she writes about these authors and stories has my amazon wishlist filled with Philip K. Dick and William Gibson. I'm now curating the looming media consumption frenzy that I'm about to embark on after I finish this book; it's like discovering your new favorite band, and then learning that they have 40 albums of material. There's so much I'm interested in and so much I know nothing about. The internet. High technology. Slow media. Surveillance, AI, cyborgs, dystopia, authenticity, permanence, history, psychological phenomenon, dot com booms, alien technology, science poetics, the future, the now. It's crazy. I can't believe I wasn't aware of this interest before. But at the same time, it is happening now, at the perfect time.

Because until last May, I was in a years-long reading and writing rut. There were some books I enjoyed, but if i devoured them, they were an anomaly. I had also never been interested in writing anything meaningful in academic terms, or doing research to actually better myself. But a lot of things happened.

I started reading Murakami, who is now my all-time favorite author. I loved having one of his books with me at all times, and always being able to pull it out and begin reading at any given moment. A year later, I've read almost all of his novels, and the feeling of having a book with me is one that I now never want to give up. So having an important book like Claire's that's not necessarily a flowing novel come into my life at this moment is perfect. Earlier, I would not have found it as significant, I don't think.

I took two classes last semester that allowed me to research what I loved, and have loved for years. And I was able to write two really good term papers. And now I understand what it means to take a text and contextualize it, and process it, and put it into conversation with other media, and get another thing out of it. Claire does this often, and well, in High Frontiers. And I think I'm especially affected by it, and want to pursue it further, because of this recent academic development.

I've always felt strongly about the presence of technology in culture, but recently I've been evaluating my relationship with it more and more. I've deleted the facebook app off of my phone and had to force myself to log out, and ween off of it. It feels like a scary addiction. I'm trying hard to not be reliant on the constant influx of media, to unfollow certain feeds that sometimes are too oversaturated for me to process. To be still and present in what's happening - otherwise, what is the purpose of existing?

Claire's book discusses relationships like this in depth, and so I find it not only therapeutic to my own anxieties and obsessions, but also a tool in progressing my artistic vision.
I have always been an artist of the 21st technological century. I'm good at the internet, and I know when things are meaningful. I've always had a hard time processing what to do with information, and how to translate it into something tangible that one could call a piece of work.
Often it does not progress further than realizing that something is incredible - be it a phenomenon, an accidental piece of writing, a youtube video, an email sign off - and scrolling further. Claire's book really feels like a key to composing meaningful observations.

So, I've found myself being happy and excited while sitting on a cross-country plane ride. The fact that I just had a really fucking fun weekend doesn't hurt, either.
Everything is in transition. My brother just graduated college, and in two days, is moving to a new city with his girlfriend to begin existing in the real world. Everything is slightly unstructured, and free, and we can do whatever we want all the time, because we're in our 20s and hanging out. It's crazy.

I can be still here for a few hours, because I'm not gonna stop moving once I get back to NYC.

This summer will be incredible. I'll be interning at Phoenix Media Group, editing reels and branded content and music media and whatnot. I'll be editing my friend Ryan's senior thesis film, and finishing up Blu Detiger's new music video. I'll be working at Sidewalk, seeing friends in town, CITYtripping, biking, seeing movies, and more. Thanks to High Frontiers, i'll be reading a LOT, and writing, and learning. No anxiety about due dates, just pure curiosity, and the satisfaction of fulfilling it. I've made it through the hard part and now feel directed and purposeful.

I don't know what happened last Wednesday while sitting at Prospect Park, but it was exactly what I needed to enter the next level of this life. Everything is different from now on, in the best way. To Be Here Now is my goal for the next few months. If this coming week has any sort of preview on the rest of the summer, I'm gonna have such a good time.

keep the faith,,,


things on my mind 3/29/16

Today didn't feel real. Walking to school in the morning, I felt a weird sense of in-betweenness: it didn't feel like a particular season, or a particular time of the semester, or a particular time of the year, or a particular time of the day. None of these things had anything to do with the fact that it was 10:30 am on March 29th, a spring day in 2016.

I was headed in to do some edit work on FAME, the music video I'm editing with Owen. I feel like I'm making some progress now that we've gone over the pacing a little bit. It's good, exciting, difficult at times - there were some techinical difficulties, so syncing the footage to the song is extremely difficult and time-consuming. But he's great to work with.

We were walking around Washington Square Park on a break from the edit, and the weird limbo feel of the day was stronger than ever. I think Owen described it as "6 minutes into a TV pilot" - either something crazy was about to happen to us, or everything would just be boring and we'd eventually get cancelled out. It's the time of the semester where we're all struggling to register for the right classes next year and land fulfilling internships for the summer, and the unexpectency of our careers, lives, living situations, etc. fit well into the strange uncertainty of the day. I haven't walked around Washington Square in forever. Need to do that more.

As we neared the northwest corner, Owen pointed out that this was one of the rare nooks of New York where in our entire field of vision, there was not one advertisement or corporate logo. Terrifying, calm. We finished our Chipotle™ burrito bowls and walked back to Tisch.

Sometimes these days feel like dog days, where everything is relaxed and laid back, day in and day out- but then at the same time they're so incredibly uptight and stressful and busy and tense. I don't know how this week can feel like such opposite ends of the spectrum. Maybe that's what happens when you're extremely busy with things you actually enjoy doing...

keep the faith~


a small update 3/18/16

Of course I haven't written here in forever. Blogging is hard. I've been working on a bunch of really cool stuff, though.

In January and February of this year, I edited my first full short film. It's called Big Girls Don't Cry, and one of my best friends wrote and directed it. We spent pretty much all day every day working on it for about a month. This is the final timeline in Premiere:

I've officially decided that I don't love working in Premiere - it's too buggy and not compatible with any non-adobe software. But, it's pretty fast to work with, and almost everyone else at NYU uses it, so it makes the most sense to edit collaborative projects on it, I guess. I'm working on the sound design for BGDC now. Hopefully it'll be ready by the end of the month!

Also working on a music video that my good friend Owen directed, for Blu Detiger. We're still in the early-ish process, working on selects and assembly, but hopefully it'll be ready in the next 2-3 weeks.

Aside from that, I'm working on sound design for another friend's film, editing a rough cut for a project with a professor, and some After Effects title sequence projects for a motion GFX class. Applying for summer and fall internships, and other actual school academics. It's a lot. It's all good though. I'd rather have too much crazy stuff to work on, than nothing at all. So it goes.

keep the faith


glimpse to the future 6/25/15

ok so on monday night at about 3am (so tuesday morning, basically) i was laying in my bed just after getting home from a particularly late open mic shift when i checked my email. there was an email from Post Factory, a pretty large post facility in new york. my heart kinda stopped.

"Hi Babs, We have you scheduled for your intern shadow day tomorrow, Tuesday, June 23rd at 10am. We look forward to meeting you. Please let me know if you have any questions prior."

I had totally forgotten about this. i was planning on having a nice relaxing tuesday where i would sleep in, get some work done, go to yoga, the works. i had forgotten that a few months ago when i was still looking for summer internships, i had emailed this place asking about internship opportunities, and they had told me that while they didn't offer full internships, they do offer an intern shadow day where i could tour the facility and meet people in the industry. i forgot completely that the day was supposed to be on june 23rd. the thought of waking up early on only five hours of sleep, showering and looking presentable, taking the crowded train all the way to tribeca to meet a bunch of people i didn't know for a single day made me want to skip it all together, but i didn't have anything better to do so i decided to go anyways. i'm really glad i did. i thought it may be like a whole day set aside for interns where there would be packs of us roaming the facility, but it was actually just me. anyways.

Post Factory is SO COOL. a lot of people apply to film school (myself included) thinking of the big movies, the famous ones, even the indie ones, as things they hope to work on in the future. but when we get to film school and start doing internships at small companies, the idea of working on those large productions seems totally out of our reach, and we settle into other sections of the industry. i love experimental and avant-garde film and i really love interning at this commercial/branding post-production house, but that doesn't mean i wasn't in total awe of the post factory. it's kind of like the magical place where everything comes together. you imagine post-production for a large film like adventureland or fargo to be done by a bunch of professionals, and you're right, but this place was like hundreds of those professional teams in one place. making the movies come together. i peeked into a coloring theater/suite and saw a really famous person's face on screen that was being actively colored. i can't really describe how cool it was to see everything come together for large-budget features where you know that talented people are making them, but you never expected to actually see those people actually make them. idk. it was really cool.

the big thing the day did for me was make me wonder about what i'm planning to do post-grad. the idea was to have a staff job at a place like where i am now, perhaps a small tv/creative production company, or a commercial/branding place, or documentary production. freelancing is the other big option but i kind of just figured that i shouldn't do it because it requires you constantly having your shit together - always looking for a job, managing personal taxes, sending invoices, negotiating rates, networking, etc. it's really stressful. but, it can lead you to work at some of the coolest post facilities in the city and you may find yourself working on a feature, which i do think would be the coolest experience ever. so we'll see. walking around the halls of the place on tuesday made me want to forget all plans of a stable job and just jump right into freelancing. but the idea of having a stable job directly after graduation is really, really appealing. we'll see. i have two more years still until i really have to deal with that. probably...

keep the faith x


LEFT AS IS 6/25/15

It's taken me a little while to write about this video because i was so incredibly busy that now i've had a break and haven't done a ton in the way of internetting or filming. But eve & i finished the video on may 31 and submitted it to the chinese competition. i have no idea when or if we'll hear back, but we think that most of the other people that submitted didn't focus much on the actual film aspect, so we think ours has a chance. we'll see. anyways, here's the video:

Eve is awesome at directing and we worked really well together and learned a ton. it was a lot of figuring out with Premiere since i've just started using that, and we did lots of messing around with color correction (esp. black tones) and also masks for certain aspects of it. we used the first song as a fill in song the entire week, assumming that we would switch it later on, only to realize that it was pretty much the best song we could possibly find. it gets the mood across really well, i think.

i was really glad to collaborate with so many people and to have a lot of creative freedom while still sticking to a professional/cool aesthetic. the footage was beautiful, shoutout to tyler mitchell + tyler payne for killing it on that front. anyways it's been a while since we finished it but just thinking about that crazy week that we edited it makes me smile. it was so fun to have it on my mind 24/7. there was so much serendipity. our snapchat stories were out of control the whole time. lots of fruit snacks and also juice and sushi. good times.

it'd be pretty awesome to win the contest, i'm not sure what the prize really is, but i know a lot of people would see a video with my name on it, so that's pretty cool. anywho, enjoy.

we got the title from Lawrence Weiner, my favorite conceptual artist. i think it's fitting.

keep the faith....


craziness 5/29/15

June hasn't even started and my summer has been so crazy i can barely process it. but in a good way. i'm really close to finishing out this week with work tomorrow night and then having a full day off on sunday (that i have a ton of stuff to do on and a show to host on but that's ok).

Tyler & Eve moved the fashion shoot to last saturday so I got the footage on Sunday, and Eve and i have been editing it nonstop since then. basically every day since this past sunday i've spent half of the day working (or interning) and the other half editing. leaving the apartment at 9am and getting home around midnight, with little breaks during the day.

BUT it's super worth it because I made extra $ at Sidewalk and more importantly, the video is looking amazing. Eve and I edited the whole thing together (she sat next to me and pointed at things while i handled the computer) and it has been a huge learning process for both of us. she is really good at directing and i haven't worked on a video concept like this one before so it's exciting. here are two of my favorite stills from the video...

we're finishing it up tomorrow and then submitting it to some ~mysterious chinese fashion competition~ and maybe a lot of people will see it one day. something cool to think about.

the other big thing that happened this week was that i started my internship at the bindery, a really cool post production house by chelsea. the office is huge and open and beautiful and there's an unlimited supply of free snacks.

i arrived on wednesday morning and they immediately started to show me how to navigate the file structure of their server, and then within a few hours i was mixing sound on Premiere. this is exactly the kind of thing i was hoping to be able to do this summer - to work at a post house that would teach me a ton about editing and post production and video and art. i've only been there three days and today they had me cutting a 10-camera multicam sequence. after I finished my rough cut, my boss gave me some advice and revision notes and then i got to keep working on it, which shouldn't seem like a huge deal, but it's awesome that as an intern i get to handle footage that their clients might one day see.

a lot of post houses wouldn't let their interns touch the actual projects so i'm so so so psyched about how much i'm going to learn this summer. i'm going to be so. good. at. editing. by fall. man. yes.

this was the 10-camera setup. so cool.

i can't even think back to what i was doing last week at this point, i've been working so hard nonstop. but it feels great to know that i'm almost done with this week and i've been totally killing the game. i always told myself that being busy with something i love would make it easier to do, but i kind of thought it wouldn't be true. but with each passing day this week i've become more and more into editing and focusing on the stuff i'm going to be doing this summer. it's awesome. i'm really excited. i'm also really tired right now, it's all of a sudden 1am and i am running on very little sleep. gotta be up early tomorrow to edit and then work a shift at sidewalk.....

keep the faith xoxo


a production meeting 5/19/15

Yesterday I met with max miller to start planning our first video project. max makes awesome music and films and you should probably check out his stuff here. to give you a sense of how cool this project is gonna be, just imagine us planning it while drinking pickleback shots at Crocodile Lounge and eating free pizza. That place is like the ultimate inhibitor of good ideas and inspiration and everyone in new york should hang out there. it's so cool.

it will involve blue icees and blue tongues. outer space? lots of goo. a huge challenge will be finding a space that will let us make a mess with a greenscreen. we'll see. i think the music will be some cross between Beck and YACHT.

here's a YACHT song if you haven't ever listened to them or haven't listened in a while...


Thursday i'm PAing on the fashion video shoot with Tyler & Eve. after that i'll be editing it nonstop.

internship starting next week :x

no time to breathe...

keep the faith xo


s&s and moving 5/14/15

On Friday i had my last sight & sound class. it was kinda surreal to know that i've completed the most famous part of nyu's film program, and i made stuff that i liked during it. After first semester, i never thought i'd do so well. I like my work. I'm trying to get in the lab for the next few weeks so that i can finish everything up and upload it here

For the past few weeks i've been slowly moving stuff from my dorm on astor place to my new summer spot in (east?) williamsburg. i turned in my dorm keys yesterday. This new place is the perfect place to live for the summer, i'm living with two really great people and everything seems perfect

it's always cool even without AC, there's a washer and dryer, we have a backyard with a grill, i can keep my window open and have my room be the perfect temperature, my bed frame is a modified couch so i can fit a thousand pillows in it no problem, and everything is already decorated really nicely so i just have to hang up the art that i want to

lazy thursday instagram ft. my new kevin abstract print by tyler mitchell


keep the faith xo


things on my mind 5/6/15

Listening to dean & britta's 13 most beautiful for Andy Warhol songs. opening the old computer for the first time in a while

it looked realy nice for some reason. i didn't remember writing any of those textedit files.

i've been sitting in an almost-empty room for the past few hours with the window open. i wanted to nap so that i didn't have to stay in tonight, but had too much espresso left over in my system from cramming for a test this morning.
i wanted to find something cool and inspiring on the internet, as my wondering usually allows, but nothing of interest today.

this music always makes you feel like you're in a surreal film.

it's 7:25 on a may night and I'd like to go hang out in washington square park and listen to spanish guitar.

i'll just end up editing until 11 and then go crash.

soon tho.

I always hated writing about stuff when nothing is happening, but i'm always glad later on that i did. hopefully i'll remember what this day felt like in a while. it feels nice even though i'm so stressed in the middle of finals week.

keep the faith xo


this is a thing that i kind of made 5/3/15

a few months ago I was watching youtube videos on the channel NotKathy, which is a project that some antifolkers have been working on for the past few years where they document every act that performs at sidewalk cafe's bi-annual folk festival. info on that aside, most of the videos on the channel are labeled but not all of them are, so when i was watching one particular one that was still just titled "MVI 0538"from the file of the camera, all of the recommended videos on youtube's sidebar had the same title.

so this is a youtube playlist i made of all the MVI 0538 videos I could find on youtube. there are a few hundred of them. I love that they are all videos that were never really meant for the masses, but more just someone uploading it and sharing it with a few other people, not even bothering to change the name. they are almost all home videos, so it gives you a rare unedited glimpse into the life of hundreds of people who share the single characteristic of having the 538th file on their camera card uploaded online.

I haven't watched them all but I have watched quite a few. it's mesmerizing to put the playlist on shuffle and watch what happens. i was doing this when i first created it, watching a lot of footage of babies doing cute stuff, when one video came up. it was a funeral. my heart dropped, this was so not a video meant for my eyes. it was a soldier funeral. men dressed in white standing over a white coffin. silence all around. a flag being folded. only five or six people in the audience. the whole video was like 15 minutes long. I don't remember if I watched the whole thing. but I do know that the military men folded up the flag and solemnly handed it to a very young boy who was sitting in the front row. I couldn't believe i was seeing it, and that i was probably one of the only people in the world who had. it was so cinematic and hard to imagine that it was real. but it was. someone recorded it and uploaded it to youtube, failed to change the name from MVI 0538, and sent it to one or two people. relatives of the fallen soldier, perhaps.

there's a lot of funny stuff on the playlist too. I guess my point is that it's completely unedited. I just put it together.


keep the faith xoxo


things on my mind 5/3/15

The semester is almost over which is crazy because in one week I'll be halfway done with college, and that's terrifying to think about, you know why

I'm glad I made things I liked this semester tho and even found it in myself to make people laugh with my filmz. Maybe one day I'll actually have the willpower to put personal shit in the world like a good artist is supposed to

I'm really excited to move to williamsburg and i'm really excited to work on this upcoming project with tyler and eve and I'm really excited to start this internship at the bindery. i hope i make a lot of things this summer and never sit around. i'm writing this instead of writing my final paper for my architecture class, but at least i'm thinking ahead

so far it looks like i'll be releasing/posting

- pizza pullz, a sight & sound film
- welcome to new york, a sight & sound film
- untitled dread project (maybe)(if i can bring myself to), a sight & sound film
- my doorman, a short film
- red hot shorts, a short film
- untitled street fashion project, a competition submission
- untitled antifolk music video
- untitled aesthectic video project

by the end of the summer. hopefully that will all be up soon

I hope I'm doing alright with designing this website. I don't really wanna spend money on a fancy website builder so I'm trying for basic html aesthetic. i hope that won't be too annoying for employers/whoever this website is supposed to be for. right now it's looking like my blog is just gonna be one long html document with a lot of br tags which is kinda cool to me. all the squarespace templates just looked really bland and stale with lots of whites and shiny narrow fonts. but i don't really think of myself as a negative space / superclean / airbrushed aesthetic editor, i think i'm a bit rougher around the edges, so hopefully the website will reflect that. idk tho. is it a faux pas to talk about how i'm designing my website, on a minimally designed website? probably. but it makes me nervous. i think i'm trying to put on the illusion that i haven't put much time into it, but i have. i googled all sorts of html stuff just to put the main image and this second page up.

keep the faith xo